The Future, Dreams and Nightmares

What will the future bring now?
What will it bring to me?
What will happen now?
What will happen to me?
What will happen to you?
What happened to us?
I feel so insecure now
Feels like I'm in the dark now
Feels like I'm all alone
Feels like It's not real
It cannot be real
I must be trapped in some nightmare
Thinking it's all real
When it isn't...
It cannot be...
I'm lost in this illusion
Or whatever this is...
Can't tell what's what's real and what's not
Can't live my life like this now
Don't have the strenght
Don't have the will
Don't have the happiness...
You took it all with you
When you went away...
And left me here
With nothing
But a bleeding
and broken heart...

And while you are out there
While you are out there, happy
Doing all the things you want to do
Living your life with your friends
And keeping busy with your occupations
I'm here
Missing you
I'm here
Without you...
Broken...
Alone...
Afraid...
Cold...
Crying...
With nothing to do
But to think about what we had
And about what I don't have anymore...
What am I supoused to do now?

I had dreams for us
A few sweet dreams
Now it has all turned into a nightmare
And I cannot find and escape from it...
I have to go out there
I have to walk through the streets
See all those places
See all the faces
Knowing that I'm alone now
Knowing that I don't have you anymore
Knowing that you are not with me anymore
How can I keep living like this
You tell me we are still friends
You tell me you're still my friend
But I don't want you as a friend...
I can't take you just as friend
I want you as the love of my life
But you don't want me anymore
You let go of me
You let go of my heart
You let go of my love
But my heart didn't let go of you
And my heart didn't let go of this love
Not yet...

I'm still here and in love with you
But all of this that you did
It's all the same
As if you had taken the life out of me
And left me dead...
And so I'm here
Waiting to be resurrected
Yet again...

Yet again...
I feel so heavy
I feel so bad
So sad...
So alone...
So cold...
Without any strenght
Without happiness
Without life...
Without love...
Without the love
That you cannot give anymore...

Don't know what the future has for me
Don't even know if I want to know...
I just want to lay down here
And just die...

And it's better if you don't remember me
And I wish I could just forget all of this
I don't know what to do anymore
Don't know where to go
Just don't know anything anymore...
Because my dream is gone now
And all left with now
Is a nightmare...

While you are out there living your dreams
I'm trapped in here, living a nightmare...